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I'm making this thread as a final letter with some things I want to say to the community and members, I'm still not coming back but I think it would be good if I were to seal some "emotional gaps" first.
As most may already know, yes I was demoted. Originally I found the reason as unjust or ridiculous, but after thinking about a lot of things for a while I came to a conclusion that the issue really was me.
My behavior was unprofessional, sometimes even rude or edgy without the intent of trying to do so, something staff were not expected at all of doing. I tried to be what was expected, but I don't think I can ever be someone that others may want me to be. I have no one to blame other than myself for my own actions.
Honestly, I should have seen something coming with me becoming a moderator. I set myself up for a hell of a breakdown, I should've prepared myself if something were to happen yet I thought everything would be fine. I knew sooner or later, an event would come up that would have a massive impact on myself.
Regardless of what has already happened, I can't change what's in the past. So I would like to apologize to the staff team and the community members of Blackwonder for all troubles I have caused. I want to especially apologize to @Benedevil or disrupting his servers and @Pkay for letting him down after he gave me a chance to be something.
All I ask for is forgiveness so I can at least cope with my emotions better knowing I didn't leave completely on a bad note.
I want to thank everyone for the awesome times I experienced on the servers with the amazing variety of interesting personalities and people, goodbye.
~Aegeus Dusk
As most may already know, yes I was demoted. Originally I found the reason as unjust or ridiculous, but after thinking about a lot of things for a while I came to a conclusion that the issue really was me.
My behavior was unprofessional, sometimes even rude or edgy without the intent of trying to do so, something staff were not expected at all of doing. I tried to be what was expected, but I don't think I can ever be someone that others may want me to be. I have no one to blame other than myself for my own actions.
Honestly, I should have seen something coming with me becoming a moderator. I set myself up for a hell of a breakdown, I should've prepared myself if something were to happen yet I thought everything would be fine. I knew sooner or later, an event would come up that would have a massive impact on myself.
Regardless of what has already happened, I can't change what's in the past. So I would like to apologize to the staff team and the community members of Blackwonder for all troubles I have caused. I want to especially apologize to @Benedevil or disrupting his servers and @Pkay for letting him down after he gave me a chance to be something.
All I ask for is forgiveness so I can at least cope with my emotions better knowing I didn't leave completely on a bad note.
I want to thank everyone for the awesome times I experienced on the servers with the amazing variety of interesting personalities and people, goodbye.
~Aegeus Dusk